Adjusting to this new life has not come easy. We didn’t know where we would live or what job William would be working at until just a few days before getting married. We decided to move from Oregon to California once we returned from our honeymoon and packed up for the U-Haul trip down within a week. These experiences showed me that God really is in control and that changes come ultimately for our good even if we might not see it right away. That is what brings me to the topic of surrender. It’s easy to get caught up thinking that we know best, or to question God’s plan or to wonder if there is even a plan there, and if it is there are we discerning God’s will properly. But God doesn’t ask us to make decisions we don’t have the tools to make. He just asks us to surrender and trust in His plan.
The disciples’ lives were radically changed when He called them, so too our lives are meant to be radically changed when we surrender and follow His call. Sometimes that looks like just being patient and waiting for God to reveal part of the plan, and sometimes, like in my case, you are placed at a fork in the road and have to make a decision and take action. Although I may not know exactly why God decided to uproot my life and land me in a hot dessert with a drought and weird bugs (dramatics aside, it’s really not that bad), I know already He is blessing me and William here.
Ultimately all I want to do is to surrender to God’s will in my life and let God lead, because, to be honest, I wouldn’t have planned things to happen the way they did. It’s also an adventure where I have to face fears and confront some strongholds of anxiety. So, as any newlywed couple knows, there are many changes and things to get used to, yet God is providing for all the desires of my heart in ways I couldn’t have imagined. Although I may struggle to conform to God’s will day by day, I’m very glad William and I are following where we felt God called us in a bigger way.
With humility I have been asking God daily to give me faith, be my strength, and guide me to the people and opportunities this day where I can glorify God. This is my prayer for you too!
What do you fear right now?
What changes have been happening in your life?
What parts of your life do you need to surrender to God?